Coworker: Have you ever showered with your puppy?
Me: No, I haven't. I would prefer to shower with a hot man.

FRIDAY- Yipeeeeee!

Month four since my breakup. Things are okay. We ended things in good terms. And we speak from time to time as friends. I wouldn't say that I'm disillusioned with relationships and love, but I am disappointed. Realizing that things weren't meant to be, although you wish deep down things would have been different, is hard. A close friend said that once you realize that, you are beginning to let go. I'm taking it one day at a time.

On another note- I bought a dvd (An Education)on Monday. I can't wait to see it this weekend with a glass of wine and some homemade dinner!

33% body fat. Yea, that's what the trainer at my gym said I had. I've always had a weigh problem, but to hear that has shocked me. So 1/3 of my body is fat. 2/3 of that 1/3 is all unnecessary fat. Wow. I really need to kick my own butt to get into better shape. I fluctuate every month -/+5 lbs. So my current weight is 160. The goal is to lose 15 lbs by June.

Hey. It's been a couple of months since I logged in. Things are pretty much the same, except a desire for self improvement. I've been working out more than ever and counting my calories. It's turned into this daily routine of logging in whatever I eat. Actually quite fun, but also a little time consuming. I'm still trying to study for the gmat (business school exam for those of you who don't know). I get unfocused at times. It's like I can't simply focus on the prize of getting into grad school. Recently, getting my equilibrium back has been a challenge. I think it's been lost since 2000. No, seriously. When I was younger I was much more disciplined and determined. Today, I'm just a tired slacker. How can I get motivated on my own? That's a good question. I'm motivated about losing weight, but I'm not motivated about studying. Ugh.

Says it all.

Fuck. I feel horrible. Breakups are never easy.

I want everyone to meet Brandi. She is my adorable baby miniature pinscher. I'm pretty sure she is a mutt, not sure what breed though. She is about 16 weeks old in these two pics.

I deleted my Facebook account back in February. After 9 months of being M.I.A, I made a surprising comeback. So now, I find myself constantly logging onto the site just because. It's not like a get any messages or comments every 5 minutes. Lameo Supremo. Who says Lameo Supremo anymore? I guess I do. Oh well.

On another note, I found this funny and kinda disgusting ("kinda" is an understatement) youtube video on LAist.com. These two chics really like their alcohol and I really like their style.

Yea, it's been forever since I last wrote a post. Moving on.

Teeth. I went to the dentist the other day. I thought the news was going to be alot worse only because I hadn't gone to the dentist since I was eight years old. My parent's could not afford health insurance so going to the doctor, dentist, etc, was a luxury. Anyways, the good news. So apparently, I have great teeth as the dentist said. And he was more surprised when I told him how long it has been since I last went for a checkup. No cavities, except gum sensitivity. I, basically, wore my gums down by brushing too hard against the surface. I was told to use a child's toothbrush and brush gently on my teeth surface, as well as give my gums a massage with the brush. I religiously brush my teeth in the morning and night, which explains the no cavities and the wearing down of my gums.I am returning to the dentist on the 21st to get the gum fillings that will protect my gums. As a working adult (emphasis on working, because many have been laid off ), I can visit a doctor if I have an ailment or if I simply have an odd cough. In my family, we could only go to a doctor as a last resort, as in you are practically dying type of thing. I feel this guilt every single time I head to the doctor's office because I know that there are many people who cannot afford a doctor/hospital visit. Even today, I really don't go to the doctor unless I have to, while knowingly paying for health care insurance out of my paycheck. I call it the INSURED-GUILT. I guess it's a mentality for those who grew up without healthcare insurance and today can now go a visit a doctor without worrying about the cost. Of course, it's obviously not cheap or free, but it is more affordable than walking in as an "uninsured" patient. Several years ago, my mom was feeling horribly sick. She had nausea and persistent vomiting. She was taken to the supposedly best hospital in the nation. They basically gave her aspirin to relieve her severe headache. They took her to the MRI and conducted a couple of other physical exams on her. The total stay in the hospital was three hours. The total cost was $10,000 dollars. And they still couldn't find anything wrong with my mother. She was sent home the way she came in- sick. Unbelievable. A week later, we received a letter from the hospital telling us that she had to pay her hospital bill in full. There was no way that was going to be possible. So I decided to call the hospital and try to explain the situation. The hospital was rude and said that they couldn't do anything for her-Not even financing or installment payments. The hospital then mentioned that I should contact a health advocate for our type of situation. I did and the hospital owned advocacy organization denied my mother assistance because she fell a little above what they considered the poverty line. It was a frustrating ordeal with no one willing to help or explain anything to us. Well, what ended up happening is that the hospital forced my mother to pay for her medical expenses with her credit card. No assistance whatsoever. This happened about six years ago before the healthcare crisis became the center of anyone's concern. The healthcare reform should be called the healthcare overhaul. Honestly, people will not comprehend the urgency of healthcare reform until they are unlucky enough to experience how unpractical and complicated it is to get medical assistance when you need it the most when you are uninsured.

Forever in Our Hearts. Rest in Peace, the one and only Michael Jackson.(b. August 25, 1958-d.June 25,2009)

http://www.eternalmoonwalk.com/

Two for One

MY FIRST LOVE...

Headline: DEPECHE MODE COMING TO LOS ANGELES
Can't freakin' wait!!!
Reach Out and Touch Dave!!!
I am not a fan of tattoos, but Dave makes them look real good. He can make about anything look sexy, including tight leather pants.

So another week has passed without any blogs. My apologies. I have been kept busy with some depressing news at work, in regards to the economy, the car industry, and our production jobs being put on hold. It only was a matter of time. Which we all know what this means...

And on the lighter note, I am heading to the East Coast for a week.
I am excited to escape my mundane and tiresome life for at least a few days. I look forward to meeting my boyfriend's family for the first time, visiting friends, visiting a couple of universities, and just being somewhere else, somewhere new. I miss traveling and this is a long awaited trip, which will enrich my senses. I will post up pics as soon as I can.

Yipeeeeeee!

How do you know when you are being lied too? How do you know if someone is simply telling you what you want to hear? Not because they agree with you, but because they only want to shut you up. Seriously, if someone can't muster the strength to really show you, or in this case tell you, what is on their mind- then what is the basis of this so called friendship or relationship? My question for those who run away from confrontation is "What's the big deal?" and I would go on to say "If you do not feel comfortable in stating your opinions (whether right or wrong), then maybe you are wasting your time in pretending to be genuine and honest."And please spare me the afraid to hurt my feelings explanation. Thanks.

Gummification
My hearts content in the palms of my desire.
Truly a squishy gummy bear oh so near.
With its little feet, do i wonder-
How fast will it run away from my hunger??

I am in a positive mood tonight. Work was the same old same old. My boss has been kept busy working on his monthly reports, so I've basically got away the minimum today until 4pm. When he asked me to have a report completed by the end of the day, the only thing I hoped for was being able to leave work on time- which I did. I made a stop at the ATM before heading off to the movie theature to meet up with my coworker there. I grabbed a quick dinner and nearly typed a pissed off text to my coworker when I realized he was late...I seriously thought he had ditched me. We had planned this movie theature night for the passed week. Fortunately, he did show up 10minutes into the trailers. And unfortunately, the movie is not worth mentioning. Trust me. After the movie, I called my boyfriend to tell him my thoughts of the movie. 6.5 out of 10 rating to keep the story short.

Yesterday was my first blog in about a week. Last week was bloody hectic at work. So when I would get home, the last thing I wanted to do was go on my computer.And my attempt to put myself to sleep while blogging has worked. I am exhausted. Until tomorrow.